Have you ever

Have you ever feel like

the world keep running

whilst yours is trembling down

brick by brick

and you just

stared at them

trying to hold it together

and seek a way to keep — at least — walking?

Have you ever feel like

you’re in place

that was used to be your home

your safe space

a place you grew

sanctuary where when everything goes wrong

you can just come back and

remember yourself again

but then

it was just

memories

and now

it is just feels like

a hole

empty hole?

Have you ever feels like

you are too scared

to try to close your eyes

to sleep

anxious

because you scared

when you wake up

you’ll feel worse

you scared that

what’s been happening

it’s not a nightmare

it’s really happening

and you scared that

all of it will suffocate you

during your sleep?

Well,

I have.